Something Truly Important

Do you believe in fate? I do. 

I have been overcome lately with this incredible feeling that, at this very moment, I am exactly where I am supposed to be in my life. All the good, all the bad (Sixteen and a half years in Human Resources - OMG!) that I have experienced up until this point in time was meant to occur in exactly the way it has happened.

Let’s talk more about this… shall we?

Picture it! Early two thousands… I inhabited this rundown apartment in Ardmore, Pennsylvania. This was during my years of study at Temple University and, despite the living quarters being extremely shabby, it was in close proximity to the train station, making it extremely ideal for someone that has trouble rolling out of bed in the morning. This apartment was also above an Italian restaurant (that was rat infested, yay!) and the entrance was often blocked by their door, as they elected to prop it open. It was a really cute situation and most definitely a fire hazard. One night, while partaking in a battle of the doors, this random individual comes up to me out of nowhere and says: “I saw you walking from afar and I am a psychic of sorts, and I have to tell you, you are going to do something truly important.” I recall rolling my eyes, laughing it off and simply being like “Sure lady!”.

Being raised by a pack of wolves has made me always and forever skeptical of all human lifeforms. I’ll say though, I often think about this particular event. It has not left me and I have wondered… was she right? I have noticed that people listen to me… even in moments where I feel I am completely off my rocker. I seem to energize them. I make them believe that impossible is possible. I will let you in on a secret: I truly believe that anything is possible. I’ve seen Back To The Future and, if you put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything (just like Doc Brown says). Will I do something truly important? Maybe.

Prior to this extraordinarily peculiar event happening… There was another time when my mother got really into the supernatural stuff and went to see an actual psychic. I was in my early teens, had a terrible haircut that was self inflicted and extremely bad skin. It was also right around the time my grandfather died (her father), which was an extremely difficult moment for us all. The prognosticator foretold things about my mother’s life and also had two specific things to say in regards to me. Being an angsty teen I did not believe in this fate crap and thought all of it was utter bullshit… wow have I changed. If you listen to my podcast, Cinematic Crypt you know I live for the supernatural and unexplainable things. Anyways the two things…

1. That I would leave the area in which I grew up and not return. This would be cause for my relationship with my mother and I to grow apart. We would always be close but fall out of one another’s orbit.

   1. Yes. This did occur and I will share more about this later, not today. KNOW THIS: My mother and I have always had more of a friend type relationship rather than parental. When one asks her, she freely tells them that I did indeed raise myself (a story for another day my friends).

2. That I would need to go on stage. But I would be scared to do so. However, once I learned to get over the fear, it would inevitably change my life.

   1. You may recall this installment of Sundae Matinee: Facing Fears in Gloves in which I talk about my fear of being on stage and the efforts I am making to face this. I think this has a lot to do with sharing who I am with the world. Learning to be ME, the REAL ME and not a masked version of myself as I did for so long when I was part of corporate America.

I am in process of shedding a skin and uncloaking who I really am meant to be. My exterior may have gotten dinged along the way, but I am finding ways to utilize my past to become someone that truly will do something important.

This weekend was jammed packed with events. Honestly, there is no question about it! I truly do prioritize movies over sleep. And who was at my side through it all? My trusty partner in crime, the love of my life, my ride or die: Benjamin James. Here’s a rundown of everywhere we we went the past few days…

FRIDAY! We spread the good word of MovieJawn at Hiway Theater in Jenkintown, Pennsylvania for their Horror at the Hiway Presentation of Silver Bullet.

SATURDAY! We hung out with Girls Like Horror at Mount Vernon Cemetery for the TRUE TERROR TOUR & TRIVIA. MovieJawn sold zines in the cemetery gates before the tour and had a grand time.

Afterwards we took a road trip to The Gap Theatre for a pair of matinee pictures and to sling zines in the lobby. We caught two of my favorite classics, Roger Rabbit and Dick Tracy.

TODAY! we will be headed to the magical Mahoning Drive-In for the Halfway to Halloween Market and screening of Candyman. The fun starts at 5pm and tickets are available here. If you’re in the area, swing by and say hello.

Oh where, oh where will we be next? Check out the MovieJawn events calendar here

This week I am proud of… this interview I posted on MovieJawn.com this week featuring the podcast host, writer and Hitchcock scholar: Rebecca McCallum

You can read the article here 

This week I recommend… Watching the Crash Test Dummies video for their song “Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm”.

I am not exaggerating when I say that I think about this video on a regular basis. It passes through my mind at least once every other week. When we were a proper country we used to make artistic music videos to showcase songs. Maybe you won’t see this as an exquisite work (Are you seeing the lead singer, Brad Roberts’s facial expressions… astounding work) and that is totally fine. Art is subjective. I, however, find this video and song to be perfectly splendid.

Happy you are here.xx.goodbye.

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